Bananas

hmm...pretty early for me to be here @ library. truth is, ijust can stand even 1 second longer, stucked inside that meetin' room with nothin' to do. i've nearly blistered my thumbs from aggressively moving Sub-Zero and Sindel, makin' them kickin' thrashin' K-O'ing their opponents in that black PSP, courtesy from DarkSky. i've read the Captain's Lady till my eyes watered and went blurry. i nearly went berserk after readin' the newspaper, taken from the waitin' area, from all the injustice done in this world! truth is...yes i'm goin' bananas!

tp...not only here @ work. kt rumah pon aku bosan gak. yep. i've always dreamed off a good rest. just chillin',lazing. tp smlm huhuhu...busan dowh! nobody's home and m too dem lazy to go out. so buat megi goreng (housemate,sy amek megi kari. halalkan ek) and just watched Legend of the Fall. me ex-opismates ajak datang umah last nite but i turn it down cos malas datang sorg when everybody else is bringing their better (better sgt ke??) half. cm loser lak if i m to show up on the doorstep 'sola'. loser is the 1 thing i'm not, tho ade gak manusia yg macam bagus yg mulut xinsuran, suke-suke hati panggil org laen loser..budus! eh..berbalik ke topic. tp ape yg loser nyer being on my own?ape da... mentaliti cap cipan.

Jaded

dem! 'nother blase,phlegmatic,lethargic and torpid day. i'm @ my wits end tryin' to keep me amused so that i wont get inflicted by this unfeeling, endless ennui and become loco. gimme somethin' better to do!!! tp starting next week lak, i'll be busy the bees.and they'll torture me to death during the 1 week induction @ Kluang. dem!!i'll mess my cousin's weddin' @ SP. aku dah janji nak p dah...huhu. what to do, duty calls. i was about to quit but my dad kept on motivatin me. i owe him so much! dunno what i'll turn into without him. back to the kenuri thing. maybe it's a good thing me not goin'. kazen2 sume mesti berkumpul,dengan pak dia mak dia tok menakan pupu pak menakan 2 pupu belah mak tam limah, suma2 la...mesti aku kena fire with cmni

'hang bila lg?'
'dah keja gomen ni nak tgu apa lg?'
'ni nak habaq mai,26 tu dah tua tau.boleh beranak 2 3 ekoq dah'

adeh...incessant naggin' to get me tie the knot, get knocked and start multiplying like rabbits!duh...there's more to life than just that u know!i'm not ready to settle down just yet. or maybe i am ready but i'm the state of denial or maybe i'm concocting these excuses to...to...to what? ntah la...aku malaas nak pikir

now m @ the lib. biotech dept best x????nak buat research jap.

Baru

aku d tempat baru.

suasana baru

org baru

makanan baru

kerja baru

kawan baru

cabaran baru

pakwe baru?

ngehngeh...aku bosan dol!

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URGHH DEMMIT!

getting a lil' emo @ the moment. blom pape lg. guess i hate changes. dats y. I hate to breakaway from my comfort zone.

kring....Kringgggg....

Glanced @ the caller ID. Bos dak2 moderator @15 rupenye.

bos mod: 'Pah...nape xbgtau abg pah nak pergi?'
aku: 'erk...' abg??
bos mod: 'pah...sape nak carikan butang baju melayu abg lepas ni?'
aku: 'Huhuhu....Hasnah ada,Rohani pun ada...mintak la kt dorg'

Hehe..tergelak jap aku melayan panggilan tersebut. He's been like dat ever since I first join the team. agak keladi but nice guy. Tp ilang la emo aku td.good riddance!

Hari Hari Terakhir di ASTRO

Hmm....dem tired! just finished packin' my stuffs. petang ni angkut sume balik umh. tomorrow gotta do the LDO steps (Last Day Office). Hence, figure i'll ne pretty busy tomorrow. dak2 opis lak nak throw a farewell party. Hmm... dem! I hate goodbyes. Never good at it. I hate gettin' all emotional with friends and colleagues and acquaintances. Dgn bf xpe. Best. Hahaha…..

They started calling me Puan. Geez…poyos gile! Dem! It’ll be hard to leave them. 2 years together-gether. Dr Cyberjaya ke TPM. So many things changed. So many things happened. And I have to admit, I’ve become attached to them. Huhuhu…

Mcm xpercaya pun ada…aku leaving ASTRO.... berjuta kali aku bgtau kawan2 aku yg I’m quitting but it just never happen. Hehe.. so kepada sesiapa yg slalu gelakkan aku bile aku cakap cmtu, haa…this time it will be for real. Ahahaha…

Things really happened for reason. Sometimes we got to know what the reasons are but most of the times it’s beyond our comprehension, tp yg aku tau, kalo aku dapat this offer lebih awl, aku xdapat bonus. Hahahahah.

Thanks again to family,kengkawan yg memberi semangat.

Wish me luck

Tuesday May 19th 2009.....m off to Putrajaya, hopin' to hear something dat could make my day....wish me luck!

Flashback

Aku bosan.Aku mencari Mp3 coz the ones dlm pc aku dah kene buang.Then i stumbled upon this song.once,a long,long time ago (felt like ages!) I was deeply touched bile someone dedicated this song with custom made clip to me after a big fight.The wording and the clip was enaf to make me smiled again.Hmm....those were the days. We win some, we lose some. We just can't have it all. Nobody's perfect.

Forgive me by Evanescence.

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you