Demm...Been so long. I forgot my password n all already. Hahahaa
So many things went on since last yr. Lost count on how many buckets of tears I've cried, how many hours i've spent laughing with my buddies, how much calories Ive burnt with my seasonal workouts (yes, seasonal, on off, ada xdak huhu). Forgot most of the things..haish...m getting old obviously.
But one thing I can never forget... 18 Sept 2010, the day I was made believed that all good things come to those who wait =)
And for that, I thank YOU. Knowing the amount of effort on your part to turn this into a reality. From the bottom of my heart, the deepest recesses of my soul, thank you!
It has been a couple of hectic months, for me and my family. Planning, preparing and SPENDING hahaha. All these during Ramadhan. Thnx to my big sista who never fails to support and help me in any way she can! From the hantaran, sewing beads, clear out the junks in the house to mengandam n make-up jugak! Best rupanya ada kakak2. Hahahaaa...
Sorry to my friends who were kept in the dark about this...Bukan apa, I segan u. Hahahaa...
Actually, I didnt want to disturb you guys since most of you guys still beraya in kampung. Furthermore, it was a small ceremony. Those who did come, thnx!!! Really happy to see you guys seeing me malu2 kucing gitu. Bukan senang nak tgk hokay. hahaha
Now, all I want is to move forward. Let bygones be bygones. Let's bury the hatchet. To those i've hurt, either intentionally or unintentionally, I beg ur forgiveness. To those who's wronged me, I forgive you. I just dont want to live in the past anymore. I'm starting a new life. Please pray for my happiness and I will too...
Now, the journey has begun for me...a lil' scary and lots of excitement hahaha and filled with bumps and jumps but it's ok... Life is after all, not a fairy tale. :) All in all, I just hope this will be the turning point in my life, where I can finally find peace and contentment...and a sense of belonging.
These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts, and are (purportedly) things people actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by court reporters that had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place. Hard to believe some of these - but they are pretty funny.
ATTORNEY: "What was the first thing your husband said to you that morning?" WITNESS: He said, "Where am I, Cathy?" ATTORNEY: "And why did that upset you? WITNESS: "My name is Susan!" ___________________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?" WITNESS: "Gucci sweats and Reeboks." _____________ _______________________________ ATTORNEY: "Are you sexually active?" WITNESS: "No, I just lie there." ____________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "This Myasthenia Gravis, does it affect your memory at all?" WITNESS: "Yes." ATTORNEY: "And in what way does it affect your memory?" WITNESS: "I forget." ATTORNEY: "You forget? Can you give us an example of something you forgot?" ___________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo?" WITNESS: "We both do." ATTORNEY: "Voodoo?" WITNESS: "We do." ATTORNEY: "You do? WITNESS: "Yes, voodoo." ____________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until the next morning?" WITNESS: "Did you actually pass the bar exam?" ____________________________________ ATTORNEY: "The youngest son, the twenty-year-old, how old is he?" WITNESS: "He's twenty, much like your IQ." ___________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "Were you present when your picture was taken?" WITNESS: "Are you shitting me?" _________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th?" WITNESS: "Yes." ATTORNEY: "And what were you doing at that time?" WITNESS: "Getting laid." ____________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "She had three children, right?" WITNESS: "Yes." ATTORNEY: "How many were boys?" WITNESS: "None." ATTORNEY: "Were there any girls?" WITNESS : "Your Honor, I think I need a different attorney. Can I get a new attorney?" ____________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "How was your first marriage terminated?" WITNESS: "By death." ATTORNEY: "And by whose death was it terminated?" WITNESS: "Take a guess." ____________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "Can you describe the individual?" WITNESS: "He was about medium height and had a beard." ATTORNEY: "Was this a male or a female?" WITNESS: "Unless the circus was in town, I'm going with male." _________ ____________________________ ATTORNEY: "Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice which I sent to your attorney?" WITNESS: "No, this is how I dress when I go to work." ______________________________________ ATTORNEY: "Doctor, how many of your autopsies have you performed on dead people?" WITNESS: "All of them. The live ones put up too much of a fight." _________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to?" WITNESS: "Oral." _________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "Do you recall the time that you examined the body?" WITNESS: "The autopsy started around 8:30 pm." ATTORNEY: "And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?" WITNESS: "If not, he was by the time I finished." ____________________________________________ ATTORNEY: "Are you qualified to give a urine sample?" WITNESS: "Are you qualified to ask that question?" _____________ _________________________
And the best for last:
ATTORNEY: "Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?" WITNESS: "No." ATTORNEY: "Did you check for blood pressure?" WITNESS: "No." ATTORNEY: "Did you check for breathing?" WITNESS: "No." ATTORNEY: "So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?" WITNESS: "No." ATTORNEY: "How can you be so sure, doctor?" WITNESS: "Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar." ATTORNEY: "I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?" WITNESS: "Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practising law."
Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose. And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows. The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door. The card said, "Be my Love," like all the years before.
Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say, "I love you even more this year, than last year on this day." "My love for you will always grow, with every passing year." She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.
She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day. Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away. He always liked to do things early, way before the time. Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.
She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase. Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face. She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair. While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.
A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate. With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate. Then, the very hour, as on her Birthday before, The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door
She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock. Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop. The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain, Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?
"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago," The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know." "The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance." "Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance."
"There is a standing order, that I have on file down here, And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year. There also is another thing, that I think you should know, He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago."
"Then, should ever, I find out that he's no longer here, That's the card...that should be sent, to you the following year." She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard. Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.
Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note. Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote... "Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone, I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome."
"I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real. For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel. The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life. I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife."
"You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need. I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve. I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears. That is why the roses will be sent to you for years."
"When you get these roses, think of all the happiness, That we had together, and how both of us were blessed. I have always loved you and I know I always will. But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still."
"Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days. I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways. The roses will come every year, and they will only stop, When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock."
"He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out. But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt, To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him, And place the roses where we are, together once again."
got my head spinnned real fast after reading an article bout this last month..hmm...seems like there's so much things we are concealed from..hmm..wont be such a stretchafter all if i say most ppl today 'buta sejarah'. err...termasuk aku...we must dig into the past before we can fully understand who we are.