Kejam kan aku...

@ the moment I feel so rotten! So very ungrateful! Just now my sis sms me telling my dad @ Jln Bandar. Obviously he being there has something to do with the accident. He must be there to collect those documents. He went there by BUS! I cant imagine and everytime I tried to, I felt like hell!

The thing is, last week during weekend, I ask him bout my car, when will it be ready. He said he was waiting for docs from police. OK la. Aku pon bukan nak kete cepat sgt just nak tanya. OK I admit memang aku agak xsabar coz Kancil tu memang menyakitkan, but I can deal with it. Sumpah! I don’t mind at all….

So, when I heard that Ba went to KL by bus just to get the documents, I’m sooo devastated. I felt like ungrateful child! atau adakah after derma darah kita akan rase lebih emosional?? Maybe, maybe not. So I sms Ba (SMS jek…???chicken!);

‘Ba, awat xbagitau nak p situ. Manja leh pi amek sendiri kalo ba bgtau.’

He replied;

‘ta apa la’ sms my Dad memang simple jek..hehe

‘Ba mai dengan apa?balik bila?’ lagi mau tanya naek apa kan?konon berlakon innocent la tu…tak gune nyer anak.

‘Ba nak balik dah. Awat?’

‘Tak dak la. Rase guilty sebab Ba yang kena mai amek. Igt insurans settlekan semua tu..huhuhu’

Banyak lagi aku nak cakap…But I just couldn’t say it. Dada ni dah rase berat dah… serious I felt like shit! Tu la masalah aku kalo dengan family. I couldn’t ckp what’s in my head, apetah lagi in my heart. Sbb aku sgt emotional! Nanti aku menangis jek. Aku xsuke menangis depan org! I just couldn’t! Malu dowh!

Then, my Dad replied;

‘Ta apa. Ba besarkan Manja lagi susah. Take care.’




......Air mata aku laju je keluar time tu gak. Kt café. In front of my colleagues. Malu?? No, I’m glad!! So damn proud of my Dad! I even told my colleagues bout it… Dorg terdiam…

‘Bagus ayah ko kan…..’ Kak Linda said slowly.

Akak, u hev no idea….. He never said he loves me. He never hugs me anymore since dah besar panjang. But everything he did, somehow, I can see his love for me. Dr dia la aku paham expression ‘Actions speak louder than words’. Dr dia la aku belajar untuk berdikari and selok belok kehidupan. Xpernah putus dr pesanan and teguran… mati hidup balik pon I will never find a person who is as patient and as strong as he is!

And sememangnya…I don’t deserve him…..

Derma Dara?h

m giving away my blood today... 1st time. not afraid of needle. juz dat m not sure my blood is good enaf for other people. i do hev allergies esp to antibiotic... but i want to nevertheless. mana la tau ada doc yg best nak participate...haha..but it wud be real nice kalo Edward Cullen or Lestat or Louise or Armand, yang take my blood...*sigh....it'll be the first time i'd swoon..haha...imagine that. that reminds me, i never got the chance to read all Anne Rice's The Vampire Chronicles...dis weekend Pay Less Book got sale at Ampang Point. better go and check it out...

Armand

Louise and Lestat

Edward Cullen (a tad too 'pretty boy' for a vampire me think)

Totally @ Lost

I started to feel real drowsy. So I google. Segala mala aku google. Last2 aku google cipanbagus…

Then yang last tu buat aku tercengang…rubbed my eyes a few times..but still the image is the same…erk??

Cipanbagus?? Confirmed! tgk...azambalakong pon ujud

Dating website?????? biaq betoi!

How on earth did my blog landed here?????Can any1 shed some light on this bizarre occurrence? Totally @ lost and in the dark....

Aku Kini #2

ForeTV Training: Acquisiton

Create Programme
Assign Version against prog

Create Rights Record
Specify Runs Records

Create Series Link

Create Acquisition

Link Programme Rights + Acquisiton

Set up Cost for Programme
Create Payment Rules

Lock Down

Nia wants us to do all of those. the thing is i cant remember what the heck i shud do... hahaha...

Richard!!!

Sayang gile. dah cun2 dah Mr. Kongkiak EL today. his wife's ford focus broke down this morning. mengikut logic akalku, wife die la EL. die kan mat rempit. bukannyer bwk kete pon. tp biasalah...boss...sape nak mrh...maybe die belum puas bercuti. ye la..bonus berpuluh riban kan.

Tp sayang seribu kali sayang....he EL the day aku on training. hmm...

Sesungguhnya aku sangat busan. thats y aku melalut tanpa sebarang arah tujuan atau pon sebarang topic utk dibincangkan selain kebusanan aku.

Suddenly i feel like having some choc cakes. or maybe those small cute cupcakes. but the only cakes they sell here @ the cafe is from Palace of Golden Horses. Believe me...Secret recipe lagi sedap. Went there a few times. Lunch quite OK la (really OK tp saying that nak tunjuk kerek sikit)

So, Richard force me to look at credit cards again. told him i just paid thousands (chewahh..tp mmg betol but tak lah seteruk how it sounded like).

'What??How much u used ur card??Wahh...so kaya one la u. u can la..itu Vitara sponsor'

Hangguk ko la Rich, if only u knew....

But it all is about to change coz m not goin' to use it till I clear it all. Good on me!

Maybank2Hell!

Lunch break....

somehow aku terperasan today is 5th May already and still havent got to settle the bills and all. huhu.. y do i hev to hate this part? guess everybody does too...

so..bermula la sesi Maybank2u aku for this month.

first to my dad. for my tumblebug yg i still havent lay my eyes on since that fateful day. mish u and tho u r not by my side........i......i...

....still hev to pay 4 u!!!! urgghhh.... thanks heaven only 1 year is left.tp kalo mintak big boss yg pay-kan aci x???

second payment is to cipan sulong rumah sewa ku...hehehe..babe, thnk for the advance!

third is the most excruciating of 'em all! that damn plactic money! first time aku bayar dalam 4 angka..agak mcm nak menangis pon ada tp yang pasti BP naek mandadak bile tgk balance yang still xclear2!

moral of the story: do not use plastic. u r just creating urself a credit card mess!u spend the money that u dont possess (dah mcm lagu shania lak..hehe)

Go green! hehe ade kene mengena ke?

Aku Kini....

Aku kini dalam training.....
Aku busan
Aku dan Richard bukak website credit cards from all banks
Aku terpikir utk apply another card... akan tatapi
aku tidak mahu dibelenggu hutang iutang
lalu aku trus katakan tidak kepada richard.
aku truskan training....

ZZzzzzzzzz.......

Kalau Jodoh Tak Ke Mana

Erm..quite a busy weekend. Got me a new bag yesterday. Haha… terima kaseh kepada pihak penaja yang sudi menswipe kan card anda. Since dah taja I this bag, then you can start slinging that Esprit bag of yours. I won’t get hysterical anymore. Sorry ek… forgot to mention that this was the bag I saw in Alamanda on that hari yang malang untuk cipan yang malang… thought the sale was over but yesterday when we went to Sogo to find perfume, bertembung lagi lak. Tu la orang kata… kalo dah jodoh…hahaha.